Any man can be a father. It takes someone special to be a dad
My father didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it.
happy father's day to all the dads in the world.
I don't really write blogs that much but since it's father's day, i just wanted to share how special my dad is for me and how much i love and miss him.
I lost my dad last (April 14, 2008 4:30 am)
due to : heart attack
The night before....
> we were all watching tv... me my mum and my dad.. we were laughing and making jokes on each other... I can't forget how i suddenly felt like i want to hug my dad that time. I don't know why, it just came into my mind... it was really weird and awkward. instead, i sat really close to him and placed my head on his shoulder. i did not know it was our last night with him. if only i knew, i would hug him and hold him tight like i never want to loose him. i love you dad... :(
Let me wite here all the things I miss from him...
* miss his smile and nice teeth
* his shiny forehead... hee hee
* his roosters and his smell.. although it stinx sumtimes, hee hee :)
* his favorite place, our backyard where he would spend his whole afternoon by just sitting and watching over his pets or just fixing anything he wants to be fixed.
* the way he trains his fighting cocks for a "sabong"
* his voice
* the way he pulls my hair while i'm sleeping (that's his lambing to me...weird)
* his funny "bisaya accent"
* his dance moves (i think i showed it to sum my friends..i recorded it! hahaha naughty me)
* his boxing moves (while watching a sunday boxing match)
* the way he shouts over me to come down to eat dinner
* the way he visits me in my room and just try to talk to me about anything.
* our times when we would walk our dogs outside and bring them to the vet for their shots
* The way he smile and wave goodbye to me and to my friend nina everytime he makes hatid me in the morning for work.
* The way he answers the phone... hee hee
* the way he compliments me (the way i dress and match my shoes with it, if my make up is okay, the way he says how "maarte" i am and the way he scolds me if im taking too much time just for dressing up - now tell me, he's a cool dad :P)
* the way he gives advice...he's really straight
* the way he talks about noel :)
* the way he cook... (laing, anything with gata, tinola, inihaw.... those are his specialties)
* the way he fixes everything in the house... ( well, we don't really need a handyman..he is a good one!)
* the way he makes lambing to our pets... i guess i got it from him :)
* his kind heart to animals... he always brings home any kitten he saw on the street... that's why we've got like 10 cats before.. but now we only have 5 :)
* the way he sings (especially on sundays... you know what i mean)
* the way he whistles
* the way he strums my guitar and sing with it...
* his looks and smile whenever i play the piano at home and at my recitals...
* his sensitivity... he easily cries whenever we watch anything touching or sad.
* the way he writes :)
* his views in politics...
* his favorite tv shows are: animal planet, WWE, any sports channel
* the way he's "OA" with watching the news ... like morning, lunchtime, evening and even midnight!??
* the way he ask me what are my plans
* the way he tells me i'm smart but i'm bad at math
* the way he tells me "i'm so proud of of you anak"
* and the way he tells me, "ginagawa at sinasabi ko to sayo di dahil anak kita,...dahil mahal kita anak..." :,(
Well, actually there's still more but this blog is not enough to describe how speacial my dad is for me. Right now while finishing this blog, my heart is really heavy and i'm teary - eyed as well. I really miss him and I love my dad so much. I don't want to think that... too bad he died without seeing me pursue my dreams, walking me in the isle, seeing his grand children, play and watch over them...but instead i know that he's happy now in a good place with my "ate" (who died when i'm just 6 years old). Now, that it's just me and my mom now, all we need to do is continue life, spend more time with each other, be more open with each other and be strong in facing new life's challenges without him, without my dad. it's been 2 months since my dad died, we've learned how to accept it and keep his memories in our hearts forever.
I love you and I miss Dad (fred bello -1954-2008)
Happy father's day to you and to all dads out there.
>> by the way, thanks to all who went to my dad's wake...thanks to our friends, our relatives, our neighbors, my officemates and especially to noel and his family. May God bless you all.
